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Wednesday, 28 September 2011

  • Work or Play?

    Tonight I was alone with both kids after school/work. I was trying to help Haley with homework while playing volleyball with Jacob.

    J: What are you doing Haley?

    H: Homework.

    J: What’s that?

    H: It’s work from school that you bring home.

    J: Why?

    H: Because the teacher says I have to do it. I need mommy to help me now. What’s more important, if I don’t do my homework the teacher will get mad, or playing?

    J: Playing.

    H: Wrong answer. Do you want me to get in trouble? What’s more important, my homework or play?

    J: Play.

    Hey, I Gotta give Jacob credit for being honest, right?!

Tuesday, 27 September 2011

  • Life Lessons from a fish

    This last Sunday night, I had a not-so-good mommy moment. I went to feed the kids’ fishes, and noticed that Haley’s fish was clearly not alive. In fact, it looked like it died a while back. So I went to tell Michael about my findings. We had that dreaded moment where we went to tell her the news. Our conversation went something like this:

    Me: Haley, something happened to your fish

    H: What happened to it?

    Me: Well, it’s not feeling so well. It, uh, died

    H: Why did it die?

    Me: we aren’t very good at feeding it. So I think that’s why it died.

    Surprisingly she seemed fine. I asked Michael what I should do with it and whether I should just flush it. So I did. Meanwhile he was having a conversation with her about burying it. So she comes to me asking me to bury it. I had flushed it. Oops. The tears started coming down her face. In a panic I promised her she could pick out any other fish she wanted. My heart sank. I felt terrible.

    So we decided to surround the toilet and pray for her fish. As we are praying for it, Jacob comes running in the bathroom and interrupts our prayer “Dear God. Thank you that my fish is  alive. Pray that it doesn’t die like Haley’s. She didn’t feed it. So it died.”

    Yeah, that didn’t help Haley’s tears. Then he continued. “I fed my fish, so thank you God that mine is alive.”

    So that whole conversation led into other ones surround death. Jacob asked me why my dad died. I told him it wasn’t because we didn’t feed him. But then he asked me why he painted the blue frog that is in his room. I told him my dad enjoyed art and painting. He responds with “A Gong seems nice. I like him.”  That melted my heart.

Monday, 09 May 2011

  • Happy 6th Haley!

    Dear Haley-

    six years ago today, on Mother's Day you were born. Six years ago my life changed.

    This morning you woke up beaming that you are now six. I asked you if being six feels better. You said it feels like you are still five, but you still had the biggest smile. The thing I love most about you is your heart. You naturally make people feel better. On days where I am sad or having a hard day, you are quick to notice that a hug will make me feel better. on days where you have classmates that are having a hard time, the teacher often pairs you with that person. This year you started helping me make cards for people I work with or patients that we have. All of this is so natural for you. And when it comes to Jacob, you are always concerned about his well being. The other day when he was sick, you were hovering over him on the couch, making sure he was comfortable and ok. It is so sweet to see this side of you.

    I love you more than I can even say in words. This past year I have watched you learn more than I ever remember learning in kindergarten. even now you tell me how you can't wait for first grade because they have homework. You already know how to add and subtract with carrying numbers. You know almost all 50 states. You know things about science that i never learned. It's amazing. You are a great student. You never want to stop learning, and I LOVE that about you. I love how excited you are about infomercials and will tell me to look online because buying this certain something will make my life easier. Or you tell me to look it up on something.com.

    You still love taking pictures. The other day you took this picture, which I love.

    I always joke around about how you are like a mini teenager. You are really into your friends. And you all love doing these "shows" for us. It's hilarious. There is so much excitement with cartwheels and jazz hands. I love watching your shows and watching you and your friends practicing for them.

    Thank you for the joy you bring into my life. I can't wait to watch you grow even more this year. Enjoy being six, and don't grow up too quickly, okay?

    Love you-

    Mom

Thursday, 03 March 2011

  • Best News Ever!!!

    I got the most incredible news today. I've been out sick with the flu all week, so i couldn't take my mom to Cedars today for her follow up with the oncologist. I felt so bad because the drive is really long (about 2 hours). she has been doing great, so we were anxious to get the results. About 6 weeks ago she was stage 4. Today the dr told her all her tumors are gone. Completely gone.

    The news we got today about my mom is a reminder to me of the little faith I have in God. I pray for my mom. But just like the situation with my dad, after he was diagnosed in his thirties with cancer and people would always remind me to pray. I came to term with the fact that he wouldn't be cured. It wasn't possible. He would be treated. That's what the drs told me about my mom. She was treatable but not curable. Jacob would often have to remind me to pray for him. Sad, huh? I guess I came to terms with where she was and where she was going.  I brought her to see so many oncologists through the last year and half. The one oncologist in Cedars saw something in her lab work that no other oncologist saw. And that's what made the difference. Her ability to re-try the oral chemo at the much lower dose. Amazing. Her last report before seeing this dr showed she had "significant growth." I remember even when we went back to see him, he had a sad look on his face, shook our hands and said, "I am so terribly sorry. This case is so sad." And here I am today getting this incredible news that her tumors are all gone.

    All I can say that God is good. And if I was feeling better, I'd love to celebrate. But the joy in her voice and she was crying and telling me the news, was the best tears of joy I could ever have asked for. She deserves this after all she has been through. She has a new appreciation for life that i will always cherish.

    Thank you God for listening to our prayers!!!

     

Thursday, 20 January 2011

  • Happy 4th! (Belated)

    Happy Belated 4th Birthday Jacob!!

    Can you tell you are my second child?! I'm a couple weeks late. Sorry!! This last year you started school with Haley. I was worried as you have never been in a setting like that. And though you had lots of quality time with Grandpa Edwin before that, it was time to get you accustomed to a more regular schedule around more children. To our surprise, you LOVE school. In fact, most weekends you are disappointed that school is closed.

    The more we get to know you, the more I am convinced that you inherited my goofy side. You have these wierd dance moves, wierd jokes (like calling Uncle Eric Banana and thinking it's hilarious), and the funniest faces. When we ask you to smile, you remind me so much of Chandler from friends. That goofy smile always makes me laugh.

    You love your sister more than I could have imagined. Today when I told you that you had a doctor's appointment, you asked if you could go and get Haley a lollipop. After your appointment, for an hour, you didn't let go of those lollies. And the day that you so proudly asked me if you could buy Haley a Pillow Pet because she was sick. I was truly against the whole thing, but your love for her exuded out of all your being and you were BEAMING after I bought it for you. Every morning you wake up, the first thing you want to do is snuggle with Haley. It's so sweet.

    Daddy is convinced that your future lies in the NBA. Every day you spend at least a few hours with the hoop either in our house or at school. You are constantly dribbling and shooting, and I must say, you have quite the shot.

    You are quite the athletic child outside of basketball too. It seems like whatever sport we introduce you to, you are a true natural. I could tell when I was pregnant that you would be quite active. And you have proven that I was right.

    Though you are a typical active boy, you have such a sweet nature to you. Quite our snuggly child, which I absolutely LOVE. Thank you for bringing so much joy in our lives.

    Love you baby!!

    Mama

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